My Mother...

I wrote about my father and I thought I should write about my mother as she is so important in my life, if not the most important person in my life. She would probably kill me if she knew I was writing about her and would be even more upset if I posted a picture of her...but I'm going to do it anyways!
My mom and I are close. When I was dealing with issues steming from being abused as a child it caused a rift in our relationship but she never gave up on me. She didn't even know I was being abused...she just knew that I was very angry about something and she was my scapegoat for that anger. I'm glad that we made it through that period. Other than that big bump we remain close.
I admire my mother for so many reasons. She moved to Canada when she was 18 (actually turned 18 on the boat to Canada) without finishing her education or knowing any english. She moved here on her own without any of her immediate family. An uncle that was living in Canada had come to Poland and had offered one of her brothers a ticket to move to Canada. Her brother's said no, so my mom said she would like to go. She got a job and taught herself english by watching television. She met my father, got married and got pregnant within a year of arriving to Canada. My mom always did what she had to do, so we wouldn't do without. When I was growing up my mom never talked about her childhood in Poland. She started telling me more and more stories more recently and it's like I'm getting to know a whole different side of her. If you ever get a chance to talk to my mom, you'll realize she's full of wisdom and knowledge that no education could have taught her. She's amazingly strong in spirit, her beliefs, and coping with pain. I don't know what I'd do without her...

I know that Andrianna's passing has placed a huge void in my mother's heart. I'm barely coping myself but I wish I knew what to do to help her along. I feel like she's trying to distance herself away from me, or maybe it's just that she's going into hibernation to deal with all this pain. Andrianna and my mom were very close, they spent so much time together. My mom was the best Babcia ever.

I'm very fortunate to have the mother I do. She accepts me for who I am and what I do, even though she doesn't always agree with my decisions. Oh and she makes the most amazing perogies and thanks to her I do too!