It's hard to describe what I'm going through right now. Things have been extremely difficult learning about someone close getting the news of cancer. I know the hurt and I know how difficult things will eventually get and there is nothing that I can do to help. You can be there for someone, have a shoulder ready to cry on, and do things for them. The one thing that they really want...you can't help with.
I keep thinking of the pain Andrianna went through. All the pain. Here she was given this huge battle to fight and they just seemed to keep piling up on her. I just wanted to take that pain away for her and I couldn't even do that.
I'm a complete mess right now writing, crying and trying to find answers to things I most likely will never find answers to.